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Sunday, October 30, 2011

a little not over you.

gotta quit blogging a while because i gotta prepare for my spm. like fucking real hard. lol.
wish me luck wish me luck olala i hope i really can focus and concentrate! cut down activities please.


some very random pix in this post. :)
enjoying viewing k? i wil be back after SPM which mean after december. lol

I'm fresh graduate from high school. say hello to long hair. :D


another bad day, to make myself happy..
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Yea here it is, TUTTI FRUTTI. :)
Addicted to tutti la, yogurt can make me happy. :D

Then a very sad Halloween.
but i just gotta smile all the time!
:D


partner in crime, Juno and Traysom. :)




Sorry if i scare you. :X
but this should be the reason we all dressed up for halloween right?

 

The very handsome boy. :)









credit to Juno ng. :)
i damn rike all these pix! haha. *memories*

Then watched You are the apple of my eyes, 那些年,我们一起追的女孩 in 1st avenue. :)
Thumbs up for the movie! very nice. worth to watch for another time lor! anybody wanna date me? LOL


w/ suki.

TMC vs TMC :D

 

Ki Mei hai :D

Their fav, chatime! 

very innocent boy!

 
taken in the library! :)

I just gotta believe i will be fine..
i just gotta be strong. :)
Some people come into your life, just wanna give you a lesson.
People come, people go. This is life. Just make sure you don't regret for all the decision you've made.
Fake a smile, to make others believe that you're fine, even though i'm pain inside. no one could understand how i feel.
Be more independent, be happy. =)

achieve my goal. don't waste my time anymore.
*SIGH* :(

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Happy birthday to youuuu!


Happy birthday to youuuuuuu MITO! :D



enjoy your 17 ok! :D
Stay happy always, no more tears, no more sad, no more down.
Cheer for life. We're BFF forever.
*including you la tiu chia wei if you're reading this* LOVE!




We'll celebrate together Ok?! :D
Squeeze some times for us, we are here for you!
Let's party before spm. lol

Enjoy my love!
Sheng ri kuai le :)

xoxo.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Emo emo emo.

忽然之间很down,很emo... :(
今天是星期一。三个星期前的星期一,你去了美国。
我还记得,我晚上睡觉都是拿着电话,还躺在地上睡觉,怕自己不能听到电话响。
在学校听到你打来的电话,你打来报平安,整个心都放下来了。但是思念的眼泪,一直掉。:(
我在学校哭得稀里哗啦,真的那时候好难过。好想你。
回想起以前的每一天,如果是以前,你都会叫我醒,然后我们一直信息,直到放学,然后你放学了,第一时间就是打电话给我,有时候我们会一起出门,见面:) 如果我有补习,你会乖乖等我。然后补完习就陪我信息 :) 我们吃饭冲凉做什么大小事情,对方都了解得一清二楚。:P 还有每一个晚上都会讲viber, 讲到你累了,讲到你已经睡着了,才关 :P 有时候我还会骂你因为我觉得讲很少!! 哈哈哈 你还记得吗? :)
但是现在呢,我补习回到家了也是自己一个人,电话一整天都没有响 T_T 因为你在睡觉。
啊啊啊啊啊,真的很想很想你。虽然现在我们双方一有空就会skype :) 我觉得很幸福。可是很怕久了你会懒惰 :( 你一定不可以知道吗.. T_T 亲爱的,我真的很希望可以见到你..

时间越长思念越浓。有时候都想到快哭了。原来他真的很重要。 T_T
每一天每一天我最期望最希望的就是时间快点过去,我可以跟他见面。
为什么去美国的飞机票要这样这样贵 #@#$%%&(*&^%$#@#$%^&*)*&^
只能告诉自己很快会过,要坚持,要加油,要继续下去。
不要让自己有遗憾,因为我知道我爱你。 =)
是你教会我 要如何好好爱,如何好好珍惜。真的谢谢你。
我们的5个月要到了。我相信,某一天,某一个月,某一年,我们会一起庆祝我们的纪念日。:)
好吗? 你也要坚持知道吗? 我一直在,你快点回来 :P *虽然其实他根本不想回来* :(
今天的天空有点灰,而且刚才又下雨。可能是被影响到吧,思念的泪水从眼眶掉了下来。
但是很快要7.30了 你快要醒了 :PPPPPPPPP *muaxx muaxx* 我可以见到你了,虽然摸不到。 :(
最希望的还是,让自己感觉到你的心。让我感觉到,你还是爱我的。好吗? I Love You.
What Doesn't kill You makes you stronger. Baby i believe that, distance do not kill us, and this will make our love stronger! :)
I'll be waiting for you. looking forward to the day we gonna meet again.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

感觉。

情侣吵架都是很难免的。我只是希望事情过去了。
我们都能够一起向前看 :) 这些无心之失我们就忘记好吗?
吵架的过程里面,对我来说 谁对谁错 都不重要。重要的是,对方还有没有耐心,
继续为了两个人而努力,爱情,感情,不是一个人的付出。要双方一起努力,才可以幸福。
没有任何一个人希望自己跟喜欢的人吵架。那种感觉真的很不好受 =(
而且说出来的话,有时候很伤人。尤其是我们在是远距离恋爱,吵架的时候,完全不能感觉到另一半的存在,更不用说安全感。对吗?

我不否认自己的脾气很坏很坏。我也知道一路以来你的包容,忍耐。
但是绝对不可以骗我 :-( 好吗?就算是不想我担心,难过,也不要在骗我。
我不喜欢那种感觉 T_T 辛辛苦苦建立起来的信任是不是没有了? 就因为这样一次,什么都完蛋了。我还是相信我们能一点一滴重新来过,重新开始。好吗? :) 给我更多更多的爱. :)
给我更多更多的相信,我相信时间会冲淡一切。我真的不想吵架了。 :(
其实你在外国,我真的有觉得我们的感情变得更加的稳固,更加的稳定。
因为本来我觉得我们会面对的问题,到现在都还没发生。我记得有一次我跟ah weng 晒命的时候,说我们感情很好没有吵架很恩爱,可是他直接shoot 我一句,能够过了3个月再来说。
现在其实自己也是怕怕。我没什么信心。:( *因为距离*再加上这次的吵架以后,我觉得其实没有绝对,没有100%. 每一次的教训,都教会我们,没有感情是那么容易就那么稳定的。
我们还是需要花很多很多时间来让爱情保温,让爱情升温。
以前的吵架,吵完架还可以见到对方。打打骂骂;现在的吵架,各自忙各自的,因为跟本不能见面,又有时差。真的蛮辛苦的,要一直告诉自己,会过去的,要自我安慰,会没事的。
那种没有你在身边给我依赖给我肩膀靠靠的感觉,真的很不习惯。要自己坚强,要自己独立。不是说可以就可以的。='(

我们的感情会慢慢变淡吗?我希望不会,我希望我们还是会很爱对方,就算不再身边,我们还是可以在心里感觉到对方的。好吗? :) 我答应你,我会慢慢改掉脾气,都怪SPM睡觉又睡不够,火气是比较大的。原谅我。*muax muax muax* 我说过的你不可以忘记,你说的我也不会忘记。我们一起为了将来努力好吗? 真的很希望你可以快点回来。 :-(
你还记得你要离开的那一天 你对我说什么吗?
你还记得我送你的礼物吗? =)
你还记得我们一起经历的事情吗?
你还记得你一直叫我河马吗 ? =P
你还记得我们一起看过的电影吗?
你还记得我们一起走过的路吗?
你还记得我煮面给你吃吗?
这些一切,这些你还记得吗,我都没有忘记。
可能吵架的时候都没有想起,但是冷静下来,为了这一点点小事就闹别扭,真的很不值得。:(
对不起。我算哄回你了没? =P 我牺牲我的blog. 来让你看看我有多爱你,我让每一个人都知道这次我没有怪你. ;D 可能不够多浪漫的话,但是这些心底话。我不能发信息给你,太贵了 =P
一路一来有我们两个互相坚持,互相信任,才会有今天。=)
我们的过去,我们的认识,我们的开始,我们的过程。一点一滴 :) 
我们真的能够幸福下去的。=D 虽然下一次见面时间 我们还完全不能够确定。
因为他回来的时间,我可能就去读书了。所以。
可是让你们更佩服的是,我们完全没有要放弃. :)
这些是不是才是最单纯的爱情呢? *loves*

你一直都是我最重要的决定。=)
无论多少的风风雨雨,我们都要加油不可以放弃。好吗?
你不可以忘记,我是你最美丽的女朋友。:PPPPPPP
所以我算是哄回你啦? *对不起,原谅我。* :)
Baby, i love you.
我爱你。:)
期待见到你的那一天。

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Birthday part 2.

So here i come after i don't know how long. I miss my blog a lot sincerely but i really don't have time and running out of time because there's only left one month to SPM. *panic panic*

Big big sorry to @Chia Wei because she was waiting for my appreciation post. lol.
Thank you to all my buddy for spending their precious time to celebrate my birthday with me. :)
@Chia Wei , @Pei Rong aka Rong mito @Weng Koh,
& another birthday boy @Traysom my new friend lol
He was elder than me one year, we were born in different year but same day! :D




Most of the guys are traysom friend. Lol


@Weng Koh, Heyyy.... Thanks x123456576897times! :)
You are the best best best boy's friend for me. You always be there when i need you. =/
It sounds so wrong, but yeah it's true. When i need someone to help, He is always there willing to help me. :)
So glad to meet him back after 5years. He is my primary classmate! :D
How small the world is? friendship forever. Ya, you still owe me birthday present! don't forget okkkk. hehehehe! :) next time when i drive i will bring you around ok? don't worry. hahaha :P
& try to ask your mama let you go home late!!


Teehee, finally your turn :DDDDDDDD
She's my long lost friend too :) We are in the different high school, and she got her own group, i got my own friends. but everything changed after i don't know when. yaadaa yaddaa and she is my best friend AGAIN now. :D She is a mature thinking love. Every time when i face any love's problem/question. TEXT HER/ TALK TO HER. Then everything will be alright. She's great friend. :D 
Don't forget my present ok? Hahha then i will also buy you something when your birthday. but still long ago la. focus on SPM first k? *loves loves*
She's very tam chiak but she is still slimmer than me. look at her legs. damn nice and i damn jealous!! T_T
and she is that kind of people,keeping saying herself fat although she is not all !! RAWR
SO YOU MUST EAT MORE, As fat as me le then i will love you gao gao. :P




3 of us :D


another birthday cake for me! :)
*happy face*


 
Rong mito on the left, Anjoe on the right. :)

birthday boy and birthday girl :)

 Happy birthday to us :D





 



Had a serious fight with him, i'm sad. :(
What should I do? I have to be strong to face all shit.
FML.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here


time flies, he left everyone and started his new life in Boston more than one week! HOW ARE YOU? :)
I still can't really used to it, i still missing him all the time, every moment. I don't know how long we're gonna separate for, and don't know which day only we will meet each other again. Don't expect, because i'm afraid both of us will get hurt again. Plan changed, everything change too. This is bad, but we have to accept the fact and face the berry cruel reality. ='(



02/10/2011. Happy 4 months anniversary Baby! :D
all we need to do are study hard, and keep our heart together! *emo* :(
sighhhhhhhhh............. where is him, i miss him so much. omgggggggggggggggggg
but i believe...
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Trust me, baby! :D

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Long distance relationships are the purest test of love. if you can love someone on the other side of the world and still trust them, you’ve already got what a lot of ‘real relationships’ don’t. and the fact that you can give up whatever you have to or want to do just to talk to them because of the time difference, that’s just amazing.



I wish you were here.
i really do.
baby, i love you.
:(

Sunday, October 2, 2011

rock seventeen!

As I mention earlier,this post is gonna talk about my birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SELF.
I'M OFFICIALLY SEVENTEEN. wtf, like keep telling the whole world i'm older one more year.
I would like to thank all of you who wish me on that day. no matter in facebook, text message, call, and all.
thousand thanks terima kasih :-)

First of all, i would like to thank my baby boy. =)
JARON LIM
His real nickname! i just dont know why he wants to call himself as edward.
Jaron is 9874324568times nicer than edward ok? :P
He called me all the way from US. *touchmyheart*
He was the first one who wishes me! tears rolling. too bad we couldn't celebrate together. but it's ok. it's fine. there's so much time still. remember my ring! XD
even though i broke the promise that i made, but still my heart belongs to you all the time.
We'll wait together and we'll see each other very soon. *TRUST*

Move on, a very big thank you to @Ct Woon aka my bao bei. 
she gave me a very big surprise, she bought me a slice of chocolate cake from summer bakery.
& she sent it to my place although she was sick that time.  I was napping that time, and she called ask me to open my gate. Argh. so happyyyyyyy =P
Thanks, i love her alot. she's one of my awesome friend! She's caring,friendly, lovely..
She loves everyone sincerely, she doesn't gossip AT ALL. She jokes with us everyday, she play with us everyday. She helps everyone, no matter what happen. she's just so so so kind. For me, i always worried about her, i'm afraid that she will get hurt one day. I'm telling you, be smart always =P
Don't get bully, if anyone bully you, JUST TELL ME! I'll snap die her lol 
and she's the reason why i do not want to graduate so fast. please, you must miss me ok? :'(




Thanks bao bei, ILOVEYOU. =)

You meant a lot to me, still remember last year? When people tried to pull me down, you're the one who cheer me up ! with adrian boo =P

Who's the next? Hehe, IT'S YOU. my another sweet girlf. 
PEI RONG aka rong mito.
She also one of the very naughty girl ! =P 
She came my home to give me surprise. i was out to somewhere. and she just wait me outside my house.
OMFG. When she called me and ask me to go out, I WAS LIKE AGAIN. Another one.
my thought was, woah she loves me so much. LOL wtf
& she sang birthday song for me, I made a wish and blew off the candle. *tears really rolling that time*
I almost cried! because if you ask my mum n I to wait someone outside their house, just to send her birthday cake and birthday card, she would rather kills me. wtf 
I appreciated !!! Thanks my girl!


I couldn't remember how we get to know each other, i can't remember how we became so close. =)
Everytime when i'm upset with my boyf. She's like my rubbish bin. I just vomit everything inside.
She listens everything, she comfort me, she teaches me how to love. Thanks a lot. !
My boyf asked her to take care of me, and i think she's doing her job very well.
She makes me feel like i'm wanted even though the boyf is studying aboard now.
So i will do the same too, ok? Let me know if you're sad, upset.
I'm always here and there for you. 24hours. *promise* 
Your big day is coming too. Have a blast my love! :)
Friendship forever. Hope that i really can be your best friend one day!
Thanks for your choc mud cake. *my fav* :)


The only birthday card that i've received this year. NICE CARD. Xie xie ni . =)



Taadaaa, MY 5C1 AWESOMENESS GIRLFRIENDS! =D

VivanT ,
Thanks for lying me LOL I knew all of you want to surprise me! Haha.
But failed. =P it's ok still, i'm really happy! She's stubborn sometimes, she goes crazy easily, she get distract easily too, and the most important, she loves branded stuff ! every time when we talk about branded, wah she damn semangat lol ! and one more thing, you've changed a lot vivan. =D
We been through a lot together, we fight, we gossip about each other, we laugh together, we eat together, tuition together. i won't forget all these! let's forget those sadness and hateness, and start everything new!
because now, you meant alot to me. ya, seriously! Friendship will never faded. ok?
We are going to graduate after 12 days! We will still go out together always ! 
Remember bangkok and singapore ok!! Mwarhs. Ai ni O :P


Zi Yan
 tehee my deskmate! =)
Why you lied me saying that you are going to absent on my birthday. i don't believe at first, but after talking to you on the phone, i thought you are really gonna be absent. cause your voice was so sick. RAWR
GREAT ACTRESS =P *thanks for lying? wtf haha*
I love your craziness! and i love your hard working attitude too. this is what i should learn from.
but sitting beside you almost one year, i still that lazy! :' I don't know why gahhhhh.
We crap alot gossip alot. haha, i love you. but you don't love me T_T
We must still keep in touch after graduate ok. my heart will always be with you, until the end of the world lol.
Take care always! i surely will miss your very annoying voice! hahahaah *loves loves*

JiaZhen, 
The very fierce girl. Thanks for planning for my birthday ya! :)
Hope that we will still able to go out to anywhere everywhere after graduate! You always remind to stay strong, and you always care about me. I can feel it. really, my girlf! :D 
ya thanks for your very long long long birthday wishes text message! *heart melting* :P
Sometimes you looks so fierce until i dare not to talk to you, smile more ok?
please motivate me to be hardworking like you nahhh! =P
Next time Raja Uda tomyam me i 100% fetch you hahahah lol ai ni ya! :)

Fong Fei ,
Woahh. don't know are you reading my blog or not. =p
but i think mostly you won't read. T_T Nevermind, just let me talk to the air!
you're a bright student and i couldn't believe that we're good friend now! hahahaha
We are like from two different world, haha. Can you imagine i'm telling people, the top student Fong Fei is my good friend? And you are gonna tell people that, ya that very bad girl SiewYee is my good friend. *silly*
Thanks for fetching me home always! lol. Next time i'll be your driver too k . 
thanks for being my listener too! i always feel comfortable when i talk to you. :)

JiaYin, Mimi 
=P Woah, you're Ziyan enemy's! hah but still i know you two love each other alot.
You're the one who went to buy the cake right? and brought spoon and tissues to school ;p
*bow* Xie xie ni ! =D The cake was so delicious and yummy you has a very good taste! haha.
I know you are going to study in Disted after SPM right, all the best to you. and we shall always meet up k. your car plate i will always remember. PJY xxxx ! wtf so cool ! 

Ivy Yu han ,
Nah after you got your boyfriend ni bu ai wo le! T_T
But still thousand thank you, for coming to school to wish me happy birthday haha.
even though we failed to go to tutti frutti and i even mad at you, but stil there's always a chance! ok?
I GOT A LOT OF STORIES WANNA SHARE WITH YOU, when only you gonna be free? :'(
Dump your boyf one day to listen to me, ok or not? :(
I'm afraid that next time don't have the chance already noh. cause we're graduate soon.
& you still can't drive , undang also havent pass ! LOL Hahahaha!
You're my BFF always, no matter what! =D


CHOCOLATE BLUEBERRY from my dearies! =)


My eyes was swollen because that is still very early. fuck jit sin that cannot bring cake to school. -_-
so we have to settle them before class start. :'(
Your truly w/ ze very delicious cake! :)



w/ my zhen zhu ! :D


was cutting my birthday cake! so much different between this year birthday and last year birthday.
I feel love is in the air! :)

Me berry happyz w/ mua kawaii cake wakakaak. LOL
 *saliva drops* 


wootz. look at ivy ! pattern banyak dah =P
hahaha and my very tam chiak face!



They all camera shy include ivy, because she was make up-less that day in school LOL

cutting and sharing cake to my classmate! =)


I won't forget when i turn my body to see behind, i can always see you guys. Hah! :D
so good to have you all in my class!
 Camwhore in the classroom. ;]
12days more, i don't have to wear this bluey bluey uniform :p
I'm gonna miss it haahahah


w/ adrianB domo's pencil case. i rike it so much haha!
once again, Happy birthday to myself.

There's still one more post about my birthday!
It's about my outing with peirong,chiawei and wengkoh and blah blah.
I still need to thank them =P for giving me such a wonderful birthday!

everything happen for a reason, I can't hide myself up, i can't fast forward it, i can't avoid.
But what can i do is always fight with it, i cry alot, but doesn't means that i'm weak.
My life without my boyfriend around wasn't that bad, because i still have a bunch of awesome friends around me. They made me happy when they saw i cried alone. they cheer me up when they saw i moody. They are being so sweet and caring all the time. This is what all of us are looking for, A very worthy Friendship. :)
I found mine in my last year of high school life, the life without drama, without war. Thanks for everything! 

lot of love,
xoxo.