A letter to my brother. 给弟弟的信。

不知不觉已经一年多了，可是我从来没有忘记，也从来没有忘记想念你。
就算日子过了多久，我还是有好多好多的疑问。

为什么人会死？为什么死的人要是你？
那人死了，会去哪里？
你还知不知道我很想你？还有，你到底还记得我吗？你还有想我吗？

佛家常说，人会死都是命中注定，我们要看开一点，要放下。
真的那么容易吗？可以说我执着，看不开，放不下，因为他是我的亲人，
因为我很想知道，为什么会是他？为什么那么不公平呢？
要怎样才能真正的看开呢？


To my bro :


还是老话，你最近还好吗？
你还疼吗？ (希望你真的解脱了)
你还记得我吗？
你知道我们都想你吗？
就算没有人愿意在妈妈面前提起你，因为她真的很难过。
只要一说到你，她都会哭。我们看了都很心酸。
我会一直问，你走了那么久，到底去了哪里？
最废的是，我会一直偷偷叫你保佑我们整家人，其实你听到的吗？


一直很想跟你道歉，对不起 T_____T
以前一直就只会跟你吵架，真的很少会好好聊天，因为你都很酷，不多话。
如果还可以我会不要跟你打架，以前我最常跟你打架。＊对不起啦＊
你回来，我让你打！
每一次最多话，就是新年！但是其实我们都很疼你，你知道吗？
你想吃什么，我们一定带你去吃。你想要什么，爸妈都会买给你。
我还记得以前，我一直会打包mcd给你，会买东西给你吃。
还有带你跟我一起出门看戏，真的好想念这些日子。
还好我都很喜欢拍你的照片，你的照片真的不多，想看回都觉得很难找。
以前我ipod jailbreak 都是你在弄，终之有关电脑的东西都是你在弄。
结果现在，电脑好久都没有人开了。有时候家里的灯泡坏了，妈妈都不懂要叫谁帮忙。
因为以前都是你在修。你真的很坏，把我们就这样丢下。
如果一切都可以重来，我真的会好好珍惜我跟你之间的感情还有关系。
毕竟就像别人说的，姐弟就只有今生，可能要成为家人，也是要几世修来的福气。

我已经很久没有梦到你了，在佛学/道教来说是好事，
可是对我来说，很不好。因为我真的很想你，
每晚睡觉前都会偷偷的说，如果你有什么事要告诉我，可以报梦给我，
可是已经很久很久没有了。我只想知道你很好，很快乐。

告诉我，你不是真的离开我。:(

我依然爱你。
一闪一闪亮晶晶 留下岁月的痕迹
我的世界的中心，依然还是你。
一年一年又一年，飞逝仅在一转眼，
唯一永远不改变，是不停的改变。

现在我眼中你的笑，依然的帅气。
日子只能往前走，一个方向顺时钟，
不知道还有多久 所以要让你懂，
我依然爱你 这是唯一的退路，
我依然珍惜 时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸 每个动作 每个表情
到最后 一定会依然爱你。

真的好爱你。
回来，好吗？

Escape @ E-Curve

Have you heard about Escape room?

What is the escape room?

Read this.

The Escape room in E-curve consists of six different themes of escape room chamber, each of the chamber has their own storyline. What you need to do is focus on every single detail they given to you, and find the way out! You will be given 45 mints to escape from the room. If you successfully escape from the room, there are some mystery prizes waiting for you! :)

The six themes they have for the escape game are, Pirate ships , The Mysterious room, The slaughter house, The Prison Break, and The Mummy.

Each room can fit 2-6 person.

So what are you waiting for? 

Find your teammates and GO ESCAPE ;D

WE'RE LOSER. LOL.

So the other day I went there w/ my collegemates, We tried to escape from the mysteries room but unfortunately, we did not manage to escape from the room within 45 mints. T_T

all of us are not smart enough i assume haha!

I think I'll go again with my boyfriend and his friends! HEHE.

The normal price for the entry is MYR32 - per person.

Remember to bring your student card, because it is slightly cheaper! 

MYR28 - per student. :D

Go try it out !!!

You will have a lot of fun and squeeze a lot of brain juice lol :D

#throwback my old pix . :P

I'm going back to hometown again for the RAYA holidays!

& please say bellow to my semester break! :D

fill in the blank.

sometimes its better to be alone.....

The Mugshot cafe @ Penang

Two weeks ago, my bff @mixy brought me to The Mugshot Cafe because I wanted to try out some new boutique cafe in Penang. 

They only serve Yogurt, drinks, bagel muffin.

It's a small cafe but comfortable, nice place to chill.

The price is very affordable, and i like the environment there.

I wish i can open some shops or cafe like this when i'm getting older. haha.

Green Tea for MYR 5.

Latte for MYR 10.

Bagel muffin with Cream Cheese & Smoked Salmon for MYR 10.

This is nice :D

He is still single (!!!)

Can get his phone numb from me if you're interested to know him. hehe!

 Not to forget, we have our mugshot taken ! :)

This is a MUST. lol

teeheee anddddd my #ootd ! :D

Conclusion, i'll definitely go back to mugshot cafe again!

for those who never been there before, give it a try! :)

Address : 302, Lebuh Chulia, George Town, Penang.

Tel: +6012 405 6276

Opening times: Daily, 8am-9pm

UBAH.

The future of our country maybe ruin by those selfish politician.

WHY YOU SENT ALL THE BLANGLA HERE TO VOTE?

This is our country, not them. >:(

Give us a break please. 

We want to change, we need a change.

INI KALILAH, UBAH.

praying for PKR, hope that this political party will win the election.

for our brighter future, for your next generation. vote for PKR. :)

p/s : i'm too young to vote! >:(

RM250 book voucher.

Let's see what i got for by using the RM250 book vouchers given by the government. :)

•  p.s i love you by Cecelia Ahern. ( wanted this for very long ) 
•  One day by David Nicholls ( attracted by the book cover)
•  Chicken soup for the soul by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor and Amy Newmark - True love series ( Lecturer said should give this book a try )
• Chicken soup for the soul by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor and Amy Newmark - Extraordinary teens ( I want to be extraordinary too)
•  The lucky one by Nicholas Sparks ( i like nicholas sparks a lot after reading the john)
•  The Notebook by Nicholas sparks ( Same reason as above hehhe :D )
• The last song by Nicholas Sparks ( same reason as above! )
• few pens. 
• and i have another RM50 free vouchers from popular. I haven't use it yet. Introduce me some nice book please. :)

Yeah, i miss my iphone 4s T____T

using iphone 3gs now but i don't know i can't update it to the latest IOS. >:(

Neway, i'm getting a new phone soon. iPhonee 5 or Samsung S4 / Note 2?

Gimme some comment please! :D

stop and listen.

hmm, it's gonna be another personal post. 

I really don't know why my life have to be so complicated, so many ups and downs. I always want to be better, and i don't want my parents to worry about me. and i failed every time. I know mummy is worried about my safety in KL cause i got robbed two weeks ago. I knew she cried. She wants me to go back to Penang and study there. But this is not i want. :(  family is always the biggest part of mine. I know you love me mum, but you really need to let me learn how to take care myself and to be independent. I will try not to go out so late anymore ( as in alone lahh ) :P Hmm. I really love them and miss them a lot. I'm going back on penang next week. for one week! *happy girl*

I know i always talk to her in a very rude way, but if i talk to her nicely, 100% will cry lor. ARGH. I'm sorry mum. i love you a lot. Daddy is more okie compare to mummy, he will call, but he won't ask me to go home like how mum used to. that's why i prefer to talk to that. hehehe :3 i love both of you! hmm,  and my aunties! i know i know i know, they are worried about me tooooo. but yeah, i'm perfectly fine. PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT SO SERIOUS LIKE I ALMOST DIE. T____T *don't over reaction* 

Cause if like that i will super stress. >:(  i won't let the same thing happens again okie? please trust me, and gimme a break. ;]

If you don't know, then ask me. If you don't agree, then argue with me.

If you don't like it, Then say it to me. But please, don't start judging silently.

from my point of view, this is not the way how you respect a girl. not even girl, is everybody.

Earn people respect by doing the right thing, not by posting something childish saying people are bitch.

Just to be clear, if you can't get a girl's heart, please be gentleman. Don't have to be so rude.

Think from people's side. If one day people do something like this to you, will you like it?

We're teenagers, and becoming an adult soon. ADULT. please, do you think a mature adult will do something like this? Then if the answer is no, which mean you're not mature yet.

We can't force people to like us, we can't stop what people want to say. Why am i wasting time to write all these? Because i care about you. I really did. You was a very nice guy to me overall. but just one wall post, you destroy everything. You was so kind and i really didn't know why you did that. 

I don't know what's wrong me that made you hate me so much, but from the beginning until now, I'm always being honest with you. I didn't play with your feeling. 

You can always come and question me if you have any question, but no by guessing or judging.

This is the part i hate the most. i don't like to hear something about me from others, but not you personally. Hmm, i mean to everyone. lol.

Crap. i should stop.

Bye. :)

MIX.

I've started my degree life in KL for more than 3 weeks, almost one month. I still can't get used to it, especially all the foods in kl. I miss penang food. Penang food is way more yummy compare with kl food. T_T i miss yam rice, chicken rice, tomyam mee, hokkien mee, laksa and curry mee. T___T *saliva dropping* Life is stressing out too, two presentation straight in this week and needa submit one assignment up. & I've move out from my cousin place which mean i'm staying alone with two stranger. That feeling is not so right too because once you get back to the house, you lock yourself inside the room and no one bother to talk to you. This is sad. T_T i miss my cousin already! At least he will dabao dinner for me, someone sleeping in the living room when you walk out from the room in the middle of the night lol! I think he is so happy now because i have move out and he got back his room! haha. 

I miss my bed, i miss my home.... i miss everything in penang. When you leave the place that you're familiar with, you will miss it. :(

Suppose to rush my assignment but yeah i just feel like blogging suddenly haha. 

This is the tong sui popo cooked for me before I came.

I remember i told her i wanted to eat, the day before i left, she cooked for me.

Really touched. T_T my family love me so much. (y) i love them too!!

Sister and my uncle. HI. i miss you guys! :)

Ohhhh yaaaa. i had only three luggages when i move to kl. 

Who's sexy back?

YEAP. its mine. :)

credit to @mixyooi, We went to Big Ben Breakfast before i leave too.

So many penangites had talk about it, must try it out!

They served american style breakfast. :D

Food was ok, environment was ok too.

i had this. Big ben set i guess. It's around MYR7.50 if im not mistaken.

plus another orange juice, it's around MYR10 for per pax.

Where is it located?

it is located @ Jalan Kebun Bunga

which is very near to Botanical Garden in Penang.

The business hours is from 8am to 6pm, close on Tuesday.

People who wake up late ( like me ) can give it a try too! because it open until 6pm in the evening haha.

After that, we went to penang road for the famous cendol and ice-kacang!

i've tried ice-kacang because it's more colourful TEEHEE :D

POSER. look like a tourist right? muahaha. 

But i'm a 100% local :D *penang lang* 

Me and the drive of the day @mixyooi.

He has always been my bestfriend i dont know since when.

the friendship is still counting, i miss talking to him. :(

Really need to meet up with him when i'm back in penang. 

oh ya anyway, he was eating cendol !

See you real soon my friend! 

My new high heels from sem-bonia!

i just simply love this maybe because it is in red. :D

Haha. looks better without my head! :)

I'm broken into pieces/ because of you/ i wanted to fix it/ why/ I just feel hopeless/ helpless/ i don't need love/ i don't need you/ i just need myself/ just need to be strong/ just smile/ will be alright/

Conclusion, wake up and get back to reality. 

keep calm and work on assignment! T_T

New.

I was thinking of changing a new blog link, but due to my laziness.. i guess i'll just stuck w/ this blog link! alright, i'm back to blogging life again. i know i've been telling this all the time but this time i'm serious one la! cause i just got my new laptop! teehee so happy and i've also started my university life :D

alright alright, just want to know.. are you guys still reading blogs? because instagram/ twitter are more popular now lolol. so please, if you want to know me more, you can follow me on insta/twitter too!

intsa/twitter :
@ladyyeeyee

:)

i'll be back w/ more updates!
LOVECHIU. mwahhhhsssss! :D

日本的一种爱情观：骗你是爱你的最好证据!

这是漱户内寂听讲述的一个故事。

漱户内寂听是日本著名的僧尼作家，日本文化发展的有功之臣，现为天台宗的大僧正。今年高龄 87岁的寂听，年轻时的名字叫晴美，在就读东京女子大学的时候结婚，在生下长女之后，因为爱上了丈夫的学生，而抛弃丈夫、长女而与爱人私奔。离婚后晴美写了不少情爱小说，并获得女流文学奖等诸多奖项，特别是《源氏物语》的白话文翻译，更令她名声远播。51岁那年，晴美出家为尼，更名为“漱户内寂听”，每月第三个星期日的下午，在京都寂庵讲法。

那天，寂听依旧在寂庵讲法，听众多为已婚女士。在谈到外遇问题的时候，寂听问在座的各位，说：“你们中间有谁认为自己是最不幸的人呢？请举手。”马上有不少女性举起手来。

于是寂听讲述了这样一个故事。

有一天，寂庵来了一位太太，跟寂听聊起自己的丈夫。那太太说：她的丈夫英俊潇洒，人又勤奋，对自己和孩子非常尽职尽责。

半年前，太太的丈夫去世了。之后没过多久，家里来了两位客人，一位年轻女人领着一位女孩子，那女孩子居然长得跟自己家的女儿一模一样。

年轻女人朝太太鞠躬，说：“太太，对不起，打扰您了。”

太太问：“你是什么人？”

年轻女人答：“我一直承蒙您丈夫的关照。”

“什么关照？”

“您丈夫生前一直负担我们的生活费与赡养费。”

“您想怎样？”

“我想拜见一下您丈夫的骨灰。”

太太于是将年轻女人和女孩子让进了屋子里。太太是个深爱丈夫的人，失夫

之痛让她每天捧着丈夫的遗骨不能放手。

那年轻女人对这一切似乎了如指掌，对太太说：

“我曾问过您的丈夫，如果他死在自己家中，我该怎么办呢？您丈夫告诉我说：葬礼的时候你不要去，等葬礼之后你再去我家，我家里的那位自然会将我的骨灰分一半给你。”

那年轻女子顿了顿，又道：“当时我问您的丈夫：这样做您太太会不会生气呢？您丈夫说：我的老婆是个善良、明事理的人，这种情况下她绝不会发脾气。”

太太听了年轻女人这段话，虽然满腔怒火，但还是忍住了性子，回答说：

“嗨”，然后去拿了丈夫的骨灰盒过来放在年轻女人面前。

年轻女人恭恭敬敬地打开骨灰盒，拿出一双新筷子，一点一点地开始瓜分遗骨。

太太心中十分不高兴，便站得远远地冷眼旁观。那年轻女人也不贪心，分好一半之后便不再多拿。可是，年轻女人最后的一个举动，让冷眼旁观的太太大吃一惊：

只见年轻女人撮起一小撮骨灰来，“啪”的一声，咽进了嘴里。

居然当着自己的面将自己丈夫的骨灰吃下去，这太令人受打击了！太太这下再也控制不住情绪，毫不客气地下了逐客令：

“请你马上出去！”“请你马上出去！”

这位伤心的太太找到寂听，对寂听说：我对自己的丈夫一直深信不疑，可没有想到他居然欺骗了我一辈子。

寂听便答道：你为什么要难过呢？你应该感到高兴才对啊！你想想你的丈夫能够一辈子这么瞒着你，他得承受多大的辛苦和压力才能办得到？这不正是他不愿意离开你、爱你的最好证据么？

寂听说完这个故事之后，对在座的人说：其实，这世界上有许多人都抱有和自己一样的痛苦，如果你这样想，心情便要舒畅许多。

不知道你是否赞成寂听的这种说法，不过，有一点是可以认同的：男女之间，当一方对另一方说谎的时候，还并不是双方感情最为糟糕的时候；一方对另一方供认不讳，完全坦白，这才是最糟糕的时候。这起码说明两点：第一，对方完全不将你放在眼里了，对你真的无所谓了；第二，对方下决心豁出去，破罐子破摔了。

若是“第一”，明智的选择便是放弃；若是“第二”，结果如何，就要取决于你的包容之心了。

常常听人说温柔是女人最大的魅力。其实不然。放眼环顾一下，温柔的女人大都是容易受伤的女人。女人最大的魅力，或许应该是拥有“放下”与“包容”这两种能力.

日本的一种爱情观：骗你是爱你的最好证据!

What do you think?